In the design of my website, from the beautiful banner and logo to the diversity of visual and written art, as well as the sharing of my trauma recovery healing and its birthing of my creativity, my intention (and sense of calling) has always been to invite the world in. My hope has always been that those visiting the site would feel welcomed and nourished, that they would find something that encouraged and inspired them. And my intention (and sense of calling) has always been to be prosperous in the process.
Imagine my surprise when, once it had been built out enough to publish and then a year later the store opened, people did not come flocking to purchase my original art, prints, or notecards. Bemused, I and my graphic designer undertook troubleshooting, thinking there was something wrong with the notification section. Nope. It was fine.
Orders occasionally trickled in. No way near enough to live on.
So I created sales promotions, publicized through my email list, Instagram, and Facebook accounts. For the most part (thank you, the exceptions!), the results came back: zip, nada, nothing. Lots of likes, practically no follow through. I was dumbfounded, as many people had encouraged me along the way to sell my art, that it would be very popular. Slowly, I came to believe them then. I believe them now.
So why the disconnect?
Intuitively, I came to understand that the only reason money was not coming in was because I was somehow blocking it, not allowing it to flow in. In spite of my frequent affirmations, prayers of Ask Believe Receive, and setting/speaking my intention of prosperity, there was a part deep within me pushing back.
I'm uncovering and processing that internal push back now. Turns out that although I really desired to nourish the world with what nourishes me, I was subconsciously wanting to do it without actually engaging with the public. Life had taught me that when I make myself vulnerable, I get hurt. So I had this OLD pattern/subconscious safety wall built up around me, and it had no doors or other entry points.
It's time to dismantle the safety wall. To allow myself to be vulnerable, because I am strong enough now, with healthy boundaries, to open myself and my business to others. To REALLY let the world in.
In the rubble of the safety wall, there is lots of space, lots of room for money to flow in. Lots of room for me to breathe and receive. To relate and to create. I do believe the word abundant fits in nicely here. Just typing this makes me feel a lightness, newness of spirit.
Monique Alvarez, my agent, said it best: "The space between your ability to reveal yourself to the world and your ability to let the world in, that space is where the money is.
I wonder if she ever gets tired of people saying "Monique, you're right."
You're going to be hearing more from me. About my passion for my A Piece of Hope and Healing offering. About my original art, and what it means to me. About my story. And you and others you share with are going to say something like "Hey, give me what she's drinking!" And I'm going to tell you just how you can get some of what I'm "drinking." By being very specific: Click here, click there, buy this, order that.
I'm serious about my motto: I nourish the world with what nourishes me. I feel called to make our blue planet a more beautiful and loving place, to help others in their own healing journeys. I possess the gifts to do so! Just as importantly (because I matter, I'm important) I believe that I deserve to make a nice living in the process.
In fact, at the encouragement of my sister Kathleen, I've adapted my motto to read "I live abundantly, nourishing the world with what nourishes me."
Come on world, I love you and I'm ready for you!